“Wrote this song when I was 15 about what happened before I said anything to anyone,” the "Drake & Josh" star shared.is revealing that a song from his debut album hinted at the sexual abuse he survived as a teen, nearly two decades before he publicly acknowledged the traumatic experience in the recent docuseries,. “Wrote this song when I was 15 about what happened before I said anything to anyone,” Bell shared in the video.
Other lyrics like “The monsters in your head have left you/All to yourself, it's alright/If ugly little things remind you of how it felt/Another day, no one tells you what it means” also take on new meaning with the retroactive context of Peck’s repeated abuse of Bell in the years preceding the song. Peck, whom Bell met as a cast member of, is set to release sometime this year.
“I don’t wanna sound like I did this for promotion or anything, but I am working on a new album, I just released a new music video that actually talks about this,” Bell said in an interview withThe video begins with a child actor being led into a trailer by a much-older man, who suspiciously closes the blinds. The camera then pans to present-day Bell in a car crash surrounded by paparazzi — presumably a nod to.
The song also features lyrics like “I’m running away/From the abuse and all the shame” and “I found love in Mexico/‘Cause no one wants to hear me/In the States” that clearly reflect Bell’s career. He also sings “She left me unaware/‘Cause I didn’t care/For anything dear to her,” which may be a reference to the singer’sIf you or someone you know has been a victim of sexual abuse, text "STRENGTH" to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 to be connected to a certified crisis counselor.