at the 2007 MTV Video Music Awards shortly before she went on stage at the ceremony and gave a performance that was brutally savaged by critics., Spears explained how her appearance—the first to be broadcast in three years after a series of personal struggles—turned into a disaster before it had even started.
“It had been a while since I’d seen him,” she wrote in the book. She went on to explain: “Everything was going great in his world,” adding: “He was at the top of his game in every way, and he had a lot of swagger. I was having a panic attack. I hadn’t rehearsed enough. I hated the way I looked. I knew it was going to be bad.”
“There was a problem with my costume and with my hair extensions,” she wrote. “I hadn’t slept the night before. I was dizzy. It was less than a year since I’d had my second baby in two years but everyone was acting like my not having six-pack abs was offensive.”